These are daily things right?

Well normally I would wait until about 1 in the morning when I'm feeling all tired and inspired or at least roam the internet looking for a picture or a quote that I really like, but instead, today, I'll be ranting a little.

I've got a cold, I hate it, its the worst cold ever. I don't even get the dignity of coughing, I have to sneeze every 10 minutes. My head feels like its stuffed full of wet, sticky cotton bolls, and the mucus is, well, just imagine the most disgusting green slime ever. DOES NOT COME CLOSE.

ON TOP of being sick, I'm supposed to be on "vacation" but here I am at 2 in the afternoon on my computer, doing nothing. My family has all ditched me, which normally would be fine, but here I don't have a car, or even any friends I can call to come pick me up or hang out. Even still, if this was the first day that it had happened, I'd be ok. But its the THIRD DAY IN A ROW that I've been just left here while other people go to Target or the mall or whatever. They don't even ask if I want to go, they just tell me they're leaving and thats it.

BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE! If you act now you can get the freezing cold basement as your bedroom! Not only do you get an amazing lack of privacy, but the temperature dips to a cozy 55 degrees at night. The queen sized air-mattress holds air, but wouldn't you know it its COLD air thats in there, and no amount of body heat can compensate for that when the whole room is cold. I'd need a king size blanket to cover over the edges to the ground (also cold)

AND yet it gets worse. I recently went to the doctor to have some tests done. I thought I was being a hypochondriac, but unfortunately the tests came back positive. in the middle of my "vacation" in utah, so I can't even get in to see my bloody doctor. "Fortunately" my dad has basically the same condition as me, so I can take his medication for now, but since it isn't really tailored to my needs sometimes it gives me a wicked headache, or makes me feel tired for no reason.

but mostly, I miss cass.
its been a week today since I've seen her, and i'm starting to get a little edgy and desirous to go home.

-love,
sam.

Cowardice asks the question, 'Is it safe?' Expediency asks the question, 'Is it politic?' Vanity asks the question, 'Is it popular?' But, conscience asks the question, 'Is it right?' And there comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular but one must take it because one's conscience tells one that it is right.


--Martin Luther King, Jr.

So I've been considering something dangerous for quite some time, at least in my circle of friends and acquaintances, and that is this: I think homosexuality is a sin. Not the desire so much as the action. I have sinful, wicked desires too, and I don't give in to them, and I feel sorry for those who would justify wrong actions with claiming that they must give in to their desires in order to be happy.

there are few pleasures in life more sublime than laying next to my dog, millie. she's warm, loving, and soft. its easy to see how she might be this man's best friend.

so I know how to use html, but I haven't in a very long time, and I sorta have forgotten most of it, but I'm pretty sure this will come out as a picture of her.

my first true love, since 2001...

ok so I don't have a picture on my computer. how about the Colosseum instead?



I want a house built like this.
to scale.
in England.

I wrote this over two years ago... and just re-read it.
and by god, I was brilliant two years ago. I don't know what I let slip but I haven't been living up to myself recently.

anyways...
Love is like a sunburn that won't go away.
No one can describe it, there aren't words to say....
what to say....
and-You-Will-NEVER find out, NEVER find out about love that way.... anyway.
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Love is like an ocean too deep to cross,
if you never find it then its your loss....
what a loss
'cause-you-will- NEVER find out, NEVER find out about love like this, not like this... anyway.
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Its simple, so simple, to get it right
all that you have to do is fight for it
Its easy so easy to make it work
All that you have to do is smirk and laugh
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Love is like a flower that has small seeds
little things grow from it that fill your needs...
all your needs....
but you will NEVER find out, NEVER find out about love like that, not like that, anyway.
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and when the world is racing all around you
don't let it get to where it can confound you
because the only things that really matter
will never be found on a silver platter
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Its simple, so simple to find this out
so please don't ever cry or pout at me
its easy, OH so easy to love someone
and when you find them you have won the prize
what a big surprise!
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Love is like a doctor with unskilled hands
it can hurt your heart and make large demands
in your hands....
but we could NEVER find out, NEVER find out about love like this, give me a kiss, anyway.
please just kiss me anyway.
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Life is life, no matter where we find it

"We travel to the ocean or to mountains, rivers and canyons, in part to escape the mundane world of work, but also to experience the awe that arises more spontaneously in nature’s magnificence. We give ourselves an incredible gift when we can experience some of the same awe in the mundane world of our daily lives. The weed that grows in the crack of a sidewalk is a phenomenon as miraculous as the redwood tree that towers into the sky. The raindrops that streak the window are no less an occasion for awe than the spray that dampens our face at the waterfall. The fingers that tap a keyboard are as worthy of praise as the feet of a ballet dancer."